Just before I turn in for the night, I thought I would just put a couple lines down (literally). I know that the goal is to live your life without any regrets. That is a nice concept, but not so realistic. I can think of three situations right off the bat that if I could go back and "edit" my behavior, I would. Because I was such a dumbass, and made the wrong choices, I am stuck having to live with the consequences of those choices. I think I lost out bigtime because of my own stupidity, and that is just how life goes. I have to be a man about it, and accept that I made those choices, and deal with living with them.
On one hand, it does make me sad. On the other hand, I would be lying if I said I wasn't excited for my future. I'm seriously thinking, "oh shit, what is going to happen now?!" and I mean that in a good way. It is a weird feeling. Like before, in relationships, I would have my whole life planned out. Now, the plans are out the window, and nothing is set. I really am pretty free and I can just feel that some sort of crazy situation is just around the corner to keep me occupied and amused. The possibilities of adventure and accomplishment are endless as long as I am still breathing. While I mourn the losses of my past, I embrace the future with an open mind and heart.
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