okay not really. My computer is so weird. I have these cd-rom study aids, and for some reason when I plug in the cd-rom into a USB port, the computer tries a bit before it says that I just "overloaded" the port......but.........after trying for about an hour, I finally get it to start working. After that, it is smooth MFing sailing. It is a great review tool and I feel great after working through it. (Note I didn't spell out the curse word.....maybe someone will appreciate that).
So I was texting one of my long lost girlfriends from my highschool days today. She and I had this long distance thing going on in highschool, where I saw her like a total of four times over a year. She is married now and I think of her almost like a sister or a cousin. I asked her over text, "Do you think Valerie is ever going to regret dumping me?" I honestly wasn't expecting a response, but I got one. She said, "I'm sure she will. I did. It took me a while to realize what I missed out on."
Now folks, that was a very sweet gesture. She could have ignored that, or not even went there, but she actually said she regretted dumping me. She basically sacrificed her ego to make me feel better which was pretty amazing. I really needed to hear that tonight. Getting dumped hurts.....you feel like you are yesterday's trash.
I am getting over this whole thing, I really am. I don't feel that pain in my heart so strongly.
My friend Craig pretty much summed it up very well by saying this: "things might have worked if it was just you and her, but when you throw in her family into the mix............do you really want to be FORCED to spend your life associating with people you don't want to associate with? If you married her, you would be stuck in that situation"
Craig- THANK YOU! I don't think you even read this, but man did you set me straight with that. Now it all makes sense and I feel so much better about the situation.
HELL NO DO I WANT TO BE AROUND THOSE PEOPLE!!!!!!
Seriously, we are talking some of the meanest, and most rude people that I have ever met! I could go on and on about how low these people stoop, and the more I think about it, her breaking up with me might just have been the best thing that has ever happened to me. So, it is all good.
Okay- I will make the announcement that the above with be THE LAST that I ever comment on this dumbass situation. People have real problems, and a girlfriend or boyfriend dumping you just doesn't rank up there in the "real problem" category. Sure it hurts a little, but when you analyze the situation, things work out the way they are meant to work out.
Thanks for listening to me vent.
Being dumped feels pretty real Jason, lol, you crack me up!
ReplyDeleteIt is very hard to be married to someone if you hate their family. This is why Ken let me hang out with everyone in his world---except his mom ;-) before we got married! Seriously! We dated for like two years, and I was not even invited to Christmas until we were married! I think he thought she would scare me away. Well, she is only one person, and his brother, sister, brother in law are all cool as hell so no problems there. Seriously though, sounds like a pretty toxic situation. I had one of those situations where I got dumped, I think of it now as a wreck I barely avoided. If he hadn't dumped me when he did, I would have ended up in the most screwed up situation (in case you're wondering, this dude and I were talking marriage, hadn't known each other nearly long enough, I moved in with him, then found out he was carrying on with his then 15 year old German 2nd cousin! He kept taking all these trips to Europe to see her! Ugh!) Anyway, he was really super mean to me when he dumped me; I ended up having nowhere to live. So while he was in Europe I found a place of my own,got a therapist, and within a few weeks of moving in to my new place I met Ken. And we took things SLOW.
Anyway I will say this about me and Ken---something we discussed later was that prior to meeting each of us had had an epiphany of sorts. For him it was very specific: he began the year 2000 with the resolution that he was going to find "the one." With me it was a bit more nebulous but on the same lines---I knew from the experience with Dummy Dumbshit that I wanted to get married and have a family, which I had previously not been terribly sure about. I felt confident to also find the one, but with intention. With our lenses clear we were able to go out into the world and find each other.
Now one more thing-this is going to sound a bit rude so I will just say it. If someone is surrounded by rude ass people, is it likely that they turned out great? Really? Something to think about, you know.
So get thee out there Jason. You need to find yourself a good woman. You're a good guy which is a precious resource, don't waste it!!!