Happy and feeling blessed!

So I am sick, I have a splitting headache, my nose is stuffed up, and I have taken enough drugs to drop an elephant.  Perfect time for a blog right?

The funny thing is I feel VERY positive about life right now.  Things are going great and I really can't complain.  Again, I won't lie, it has been an adjustment getting used to not talking to a certain person on a daily basis, but a new friend has filled that void quite nicely.  I enjoy the regular text messages.  It has been nice.  She has stated that I need time to heal, and she is right.  As much as I want to pretend that I don't give a shit about the ex, I know I am lying.  So yeah, I am taking some time to let the whole thing just become a distant memory, while still retaining the important info to make sure I don't ever get myself into another dumbass situation like that one.

I was listening to Dr. Joy Browne's online podcast today and she said that all things happen for a reason.  She said that in every point of her life, when something she had in her life fell apart, be it a job, or relationship, something or someone that was WAY better ALWAYS came along.  This new certain something or someone would have never been able to happen, had not the other situation deteriorated.  So I am feeling very good, and surprising optimistic! ;)

Tonight I have been somewhat useless.  I really wanted to be productive, but kind of feel under the weather.  I still can't seem to get back into the groove of studying for the CSP portion.  I had better start and I know it.  I also wanted to hit some drums tonight, but also just wasn't feeling it.

I'm not going to lie.  I am dreading Thanksgiving.  It was funny, the other night, I told dad, "hey, I'm not sure if I'm going to make it this year."  He was cool and totally understood, but then Judy comes up to me right before I leave and says, "Don't forget about coming over for Thanksgiving!"    haha  I did want to forget, but I know it would break her heart, so I will hang out.

To be honest, the reason why I hate hanging out is that I feel like "the freak" that can't seem to get his shit together regarding the whole marriage and children thing.  I feel like I have been frozen in a block of ice for 10 years, and everyone is all grown up, married, and with kids, but I'm just the same guy I was always.  I have alot of great things that I have been able to accomplish like a great job, own a nice house, two cars, no money issues, but I just can't seem to make things work in the marriage, family, kid department.   It's all good though.....I just really appreciate all the great things that I have been blessed with.

2010 was a great year to be alive!  I am looking forward to many more.