ADD or ADHD

I know that this is such an overly misdiagnosed issue, and that doctors are afraid of anyone getting hooked on Amphetamine drugs like Adderall,  but I seriously think I have it.

The thing is, I really wish I could be tested.....like seriously tested for it.  If I need drugs, than so be it.  I get the impression that doctors see a 36 yr old adult and think, "what the hell does this dude need to worry about attention deficit?  He has made it this far, got through high school and college, and can maintain a job.  He is totally just looking to get high"

haha  Actually no!  I don't want to get high.  I don't even want to take anymore medication than I absolutely need.  My medicine cabinet already looks like I am an old person with a shitload of pills that I take for cholesterol, and other things.    I really don't need another pill.  However, I also don't like to sit down and try to study, and read the same small paragraph 5 times because I can't keep my mind for going everywhere.  It takes me FOREVER to do anything, especially sitting down and trying to do something academic like.

Another reason why I think I have it is that I remember struggling alot with my early grade school years.  I just could not stand still!  Hence, why I must be a drummer.  I struggled until I believe I actually wanted to learn and developed some coping skills.

Now I really think I should get myself checked out.  Jodi, my friend, may I ask you again who the Dr. you went to for your ADD tests?  See?  If I wasn't so ADD, I would probably remember all of this.

We had a great Thanksgiving!  So much good food.  I ate way too much.  I really enjoyed spending time with both my dad and brother, and hope I can start visiting my brother on a more regular basis. Both dad (and our step-mother Judy) are really kind souls.  Just truly sweethearts.  I feel lucky to have been blessed having them in my life.  I REALLY miss my mom.  Every year it seems like I miss her more and more.  You would think it would be the other way around......but it is not.

We actually did a couple small hikes, one at Cinci Park and one at Keller Kerns Park, both in Lancaster.  I thoroughly enjoyed our time together.  As we were walking at Cinci, the cold wind was almost unbearably painful.  I looked over to dad and said, "Someday I am seriously going to move to a warmer climate!"  He laughed and said "I agree, and I don't blame you!"  God Bless Ohio, I love you, but not Nov-April.